Slowly, but surely...
I am beginning to lose my mind.

I sometimes feel as though everyone around me doesn't make sense. They've all gone mad or can't even begin to comprehend the things I say. As if my mind exceeds the capacity of theirs by a long-shot. All things considered, I'm not the brightest bulb in the tanning bed, but shit. Or maybe... I'm the one who's mad. O_o

You came to me in a dream.

From that moment, I decided that there is no need for the constant reminders. Crying out to you the depths of this love, the intensity of this love, for you should know.

If there was a moment, a single moment of our entire history together, in which I felt a great amount of disappointment towards you, this would be that moment.

See this whole thing, with you, me, and the rest of them...is just pointless.

I guess I don't really comprehend the whole "leading someone on" thing.

I know enough now to see that it isn't going to end as easy as it started.

I wish I can say, I'm done stressing you.
But as much as I'd like for that statement to be true, it isn't. I have been there for you since day one, I never broke my promise, I can't even put in words the amount of love my heart, my soul, my entire being, holds for you.

But at the same time, I don't deserve this.
I don't know how you can love someone and play with them so. Tell them things that you're not able to show. Tell them they're your number one. But little do they know after it's all said and done, another face is the one who is shown. That other face shows the importance of that person to you. But last time I checked, you said I was important. I mattered, and you wanted to wait until we were face to face to show me that. You were going to make it right and I couldn't wait to see what you'd do.

But at the end of the day you can't have your cake and eat it too.

High moments with Deysi. :)



Deysi: Show those jugs.
Me: They're nice, :grabs:

Only I can see the you you’re waiting to be.

"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you.
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you"

-Life after you.

For some reason, I really like him.

I met you last night... I wonder if we'll meet again.

Why is love intensified by absence?

"Change can be so constant you don't even feel the difference until there is one. It can be so slow that you don't even notice that your life is better or worse, until it is. Or it can just blow you away, make you something different in an instant. It happened to me."

"Make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty."

Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

“I'm not a concept. I want you to just keep that in your head. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked-up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind.”

♥

haha.

Heard it on the radio the other day, pretty catchy.

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned. "

It's uncanny.

Hayden Christensen

You know there's nothing more than this.

Sparks the Rescue.

Stuff that bug me #96:

When someone's clothing is the exact color of their skin tone.

Not just one article of clothing, but like the entire outfit. Depending on how far the person is, I either think:
"Is that person really walking around in a bodysuit?" or
"Omg, he's naked!"

Saturday night... was fucking crazy.
From the gangs and the stabbings, to a 17 year old boy getting jumped by over 10 grown ass men in a public fast food joint, to a pedophile/rapist. I didn't realize where I lived was this bad.

Lost in Translation:

I've seen probably a 5 minute piece of the film while I was skipping through channels one day, looking for something to watch. I then saw the DVD at my brother's house and decided to watch it. Not many movies speak to me, but that one did. It's very heart-felt and warm and it makes me think about my own life in more ways than one. This is what did it for me: "the unexpected connections we make that might not last- but stay with us forever. (description of the film)
That line could not have described it more perfectly.
Sofia Coppola, well done.