I need something...

I'm not quite sure on what that something might be.
But I think I need something new.
I need something to look forward to each day.
I need motivation.
Enough motivation so that I don't slack off believing there's some sort of consolation prize.
I want something that can put a smile on my face.
Something that..
even on my bad days I'm still okay.
or every weekday feels like a weekend.
or that I wont get annoyed with every new "trend"
or that I actually stop to smell the roses.
and a bunch of doors open when one door closes.
or that every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day
I feel high on life.
so high, in fact, that I see stars up close.
with my head in the clouds feeling infinite.
that's quite lovely I suppose.
I want something that makes these moments last a lifetime.
such bountiful acts that is must be a crime.
such beauty in every little thing.
that it must be a sign.
a sign that things are different.
Different in a way that it's new.
New in a way that it's different.
So appealing to me I must say.
I crave it everyday.
but I guess it's better that way.
I need a change.