I've had such an eye-opening experience, just now. Not really an experience. Much more like a wake-up call. But anyway, there are so many things that have blinded me. So many things in which I've blocked out, so that I can move forward. But I haven't moved forward... nor will I unless I do what my intuition is telling me to do. I'm pretty sure that I've realized a lot today. I've realized that you sometimes want something so bad that you persuade your mind that you actually need it. That it is for YOU, therefore you will not let it pass you by. Now let's be real. I know I can be quite stubborn at times. Yet I am not afraid to admit to that. I altered my way of thinking because it was not benefiting me. I was in denial. But I no longer am.

I know that friendship isn't what it used to be. The people... or person in which you befriended because of whatever reason, you believed was something truly meaningful and one of a kind, may have not been so.
Or that person who you would probably give up anything for, or at least you told yourself that..
may have not been worth the heartaches and struggles.
And the person who probably loved you unconditionally when no one else did is someone to cherish, and not to feel annoyed or bewildered with their constant persistence.
And that life really is short regardless of what anyone has to say. You have one shot to live, and you should live it the way you want to. Despite your shortcomings and your pessimistic attitude, at least you can say "Hey, I might not have succeeded in what I thought I was set out to do...
but I had a shitload of fun trying."

This is really an intense feeling to me because of the fact that I am a very discouraged person,
and for once, I'm GOING to take my own advice. It may not be today. It may not be tomorrow, or next week, or the week after that. But before I die. I will stop dreaming. and start living.