Alright so, this is how the "renting a room" search is going.

First place I checked out..

Pros:
1. Sharing the apartment with two other girls, therefore I can feel some sort of comfort.
2. Deal's pretty good.

Cons:
1. It's far, and I have no idea how to enter nor exit the area.
2. Apartment's pretty cramped and I feel claustrophobic.

Second place..

Pros:
1. Better deal than the previous room.
2. Much more roomy and nicer to look at.
3. Better location.

Cons:
1. I would be living with two middle-aged men....
AWKWARD.


So basically I'm leaning towards the second place because of the price, BUT I don't know about the whole living with two random grown men, ya know?
I don't want to be uncomfortable.

Fuck. When it's not one thing, it's the other.

....... :I

Now I know why I have a crush on him.

I miss you so much it hurts.

this song makes me feel so blissful.

He told me he wished that he had a reset button so that he could start all over. Like a game. Difference is, this is REAL life. Although, that is a pretty neat concept.
Sadly... there is no reset button.

But since we're comparing this to a game.. I see it as, if you can start a new game, figure out why you messed up and how it lead to "game over", then you can go back to the original saved game where you left off, and move forward into victory.
It's all a matter of re-evaluating your strategy.

Not going to lie... this is bad ass.
If only I knew how to ride a bike :/ *sigh

:DDD

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding.

-Breakeven: The Script.

-

I've never realized how much being alone, for a certain period of time, can almost make you reach borderline insanity. I mean.. at this point in my life, instead of doing something productive, I just think. But I over-think, and over-analyze every aspect of my life.. so much that I wind up nearly causing my brain to shut down. The fucked up thing is, as much as I know my life won't ever be the way I'd like, I don't really put in 100% of my effort to try to change that. It kills me, but at the same time, I'm just sitting here... wondering what the fuck my problem is.

what the...

Textsfromlastnight:

(516):onenightstand. Woke up and saw my nuva ring on the floor. apparently he thought it was a glow stick. pick me up please?

(443):he didnt ask why there was a glowstick shoved up your vag?

this song still gets me..

Speech of Arrested Development.

Fuck, I can't concentrate for shit.

Okay, so look, my dickwad of a landlord made me give her my cable box the other day and her husband is coming tomorrow for my modem.
So no tv, no internet, and no phone.
What the fuck will I do with myself you ask?
I don't know. Borrow my bro's dvd's to keep me busy... Uhhhh, Clean? Na, scratch that. Everything right now has a time limit and things are getting pretty hectic because of the immediate move.

But anyways, back to me needing to concentrate.
Btw, I don't know why I always drift off into other conversations. I wonder if it's annoying to others.
Oh yeah, anyway, since things are pretty quiet here I've decided to try to attempt to get back into the whole song writing thing. Honestly, I've only written two songs in my life, and I was like 16 at the time. So it's safe to assume that this is pretty difficult. But I give up on everything I start and I hate it, so I will try to finish it.

On another note, I hope all these obstacles that I'm currently going through is worth it in the end, otherwise it'll just be more chaos in my life that I have to fix.

Had a thing for him back in the day. :}

Seeing this..

I couldn't be happier. =']

.......

Is such a..
slap in the face moment. >_>

So my birthday today... sucked super dick.
figures-

Anyways, I REFUSE to just let it be.
For years my birthday has been just another day, and I'm tired of it.

Therefore, I might have a get together at my place.
You know before I move out, like the following week.
Funny.. I just recently moved there and now I'm moving out, lol. But that's another story.

Back to what I was going on about..
So yeah, and after the get. I shall go clubbing.
Where? No idea yet.

But now, I feel better about my poor excuse for a birthday :|

Ughhhhh♥

:Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one.

This makes me nauseous, I don't know why.

"I’m sorry to say this, but, those who are most worthy of love are never made happy by it. Do you still think men love the way we do? No… men enjoy the happiness they feel. We can only enjoy the happiness we give. They are not capable of devoting themselves exclusively to one person. So to hope to be made happy by love is a certain cause of grief."

-Madame de Rosemonde, Dangerous Liaisons


I don't completely agree.
But in my case, definitely.

Man, you seriously bailed on me.

Fuck, you're sexy.

So Saturday, was flipping awesome.

Who knew spending a night, hanging out with a complete stranger, could be so fun?

The sis, Deysi, and I had it pretty made for ourselves.

That definitely showed me how I need to be treated.

The wool has now been removed from my eyes.

You will never change.
Don't you know why?
YOU'RE the reason they came up with the expression
"when pigs fly".