Vent.

For once, I'm going to be completely honest with myself.
Instead of being completely in denial and acting like things are just okay.
*SIGH

Here goes:

I think of you, a lot.
I feel like my feelings for you are obvious.
But maybe that's just my opinion.

I front.
And say things that I don't really mean.
When all I really want to do is scream,
"Yes, I want you. I want you here with me. Cause I love you.."

While I sit back.
and laugh with you.
as we talk about our daily events and joke around.

I can't help but think.....
how DIFFERENT I wish things were between us.

I wish you were next to me right now.
I wish I could lay on your chest listening to the beat of your heart.
I wish I knew if you were genuine or not.

I feel like it's a game.

And the only reason I continue to play is because I hope that someday...
it will all be worth me waiting around for.

And for once, I'll be happy.