It's been a LONG time. No internet access :/, currently at an internet cafe.
I miss posting since it's so addicting to me.
Hopefully, I shall be buying a new laptop and getting internet soon.
There has just been a few issues with money and lousy roomates -_-
Yeah....
Will get back soon!

P.s, thanks new followers even though I havent posted jackshit in a while.

The Spotless Mind.
It bothers me that so many things, relevant or not, remind me of you. From music to buildings to inanimate objects. It's so weird. The more I try to forget the more I get reminded. How typical.

I think about you with someone else, without a care in the world. I wonder where you are and when you're coming back. I try to forget the memories but it doesn't seem to work.. instead I think of more we can make. It doesn't really have to do with the fact that I love you, but I miss you. I don't want to continue with such thoughts but then again I do. I sometimes wish I had a spotless mind but immediately take that wish back. I don't need or want a commitment, nor do I want to be labeled. I just want you. I want to have fun like we did before.

I don't care if this comes off as vulnerable because I expose the truth within my feelings; because I'm not afraid of what people think. The truth is I'm not. I've just been through enough shit to realize that if someone can me me smile, and be taken with bliss for a split second to what can feel like eternity, than I'd rather embrace it. To some, what may seem pointless is what ignites my soul.

...Maybe not a spotless mind at all, but laughter, your touch, your warmth, eternal sunshine.

"You're alright.. or maybe even better than alright. You may be possibly extraordinary."

More car fun.

I'm not a "too often" kind.

I don't mean that I'm this rare species or that I'm"unique". (Btw, it's really wack when people call themselves that cause 90% of the time they're not.) I'm not abstract or exotic. I'm simply saying I'm not a "too often" kind.

You may not realize it when you look at me or when you speak to me, or even when you let me in. But once there, it may take you months maybe years, or maybe it'll be too late.. I'll make you second guess yourself, change your mind when your mind was set, or even allow you to take a chance. Not to whoever I come across but whoever lets me in deep enough. I can show you real emotion, take you elsewhere, and even if you let me slip, I'm never really gone.

Ihop shakes are the best.

More pointless pictures.

"Blackberry"

Car fun.

Babysitting. Oh joy.

Oh well, at least there's a computer here. :)

I keep saying this to myself... maybe, just maybe.

"I don't wanna waste an entire album on you, Ive been there done that, yea... and I don't wanna tell who what when where why and how cause who cares, no nobody cares.

But I hope you soon find out how to love, once upon a time you wanted to learn, I thought I could teach you but you were more afraid, than willing. So when it comes don't push it away, one day you will find it is the greatest gift and I hope you don't take advantage of it again.

Hold her when she wants to be held, don't yell at her when she's only trying to love you.Take her to her favorite place more often than not, don't take her kindness for weakness cause I'm sure she'll love you a lot. Support her in all that she does, don't tear her down build her up cause that is the worst thing you can do to someone you love. Put her high on a pedestal and tell her when she looks beautiful, tell her when she looks beautiful ...

I used to think that I could not bare you to be with anyone but me, but I've been there done that, yea... and since then I've come to think silly of that whole mentality, cause I wanna find love too though it wont be with you. I wish for everyone to one day find happiness and love including you, yea... and I don't wanna go into detail cause I've said enough and it's not my intent to hurt you.

But I hope you soon find out how to love, once upon a time you wanted to learn, I thought I could teach you but you were more afraid, than willing. So when it comes don't push it away, one day you will find it is the greatest gift and I hope you don't take advantage of it again.


Hold her when she wants to be held, don't yell at her when she's only trying to love you.Take her to her favorite place more often than not, don't take her kindness for weakness cause I'm sure she'll love you a lot. Support her in all that she does, don't tear her down build her up cause that is the worst thing you can do to someone you love. Put her high on a pedestal and tell her when she looks beautiful, tell her when she looks beautiful...."

*bites

Random Facts:

I have this thing where if I'm a guest at your house and you ask me if I'm hungry/thirsty, I will ALWAYS say no. Even if I am, I would sit there dehydrated and starving like a fool.

pretty neat.